Thursday, February 28, 2013

I were your child or u were mine??








As I sit and think of the past,
All the wonderful memories that last,
One thing instantly comes to my mind,
I were  your child or u were mine??

Can still remember those innocent eyes,
Pleading for a loveful sight,
Explaining your helplessness which u couldn’t describe

U showing me, I got hurt here,
Pointing with your finger dear,
And a tear would roll down your eyes,
Do something for me, ma child

I still remember, when I was a child,
When we used to go 4 a walk, a mile,
Ma hands would touch your fingers to hold,
But as u did’nt like it, u would ignore..
Then I was a child, and u were now,
Used to hold ma hand, every then and now..


Your complaints like a child, as soon as I enter
I miss dose lines repeating ma name in chanter
Asking me to get your favorite sweet  u want 2
Not listening 2 me,  even after I warned u
 Would just remember ma childhood, how I used 2 do!

When u used to sit to dine,
Used to wait for me to come and join,
Could see those eyes sparkling bright
Satisfaction n happiness shone on your face upright

Sometimes a morsel couldn’t reach your mouth,
Still remember u trying hard without an ouch
How much! How much pain have u seen
Again that morsel I want u to feed..

Your fingers holding my little hands
Teaching me how to read and write
Now those hands are yours and words are mine
Repeat the written sentence, draw the same drawn line

I still wonder I was your child or u were mine!
While combing your hair, my school times would remind
The plats which u used to tie me once,
I have to do it 4 you now hence..

Wearing the dress in your neck
Putting your arms in the hands of your dress
Reminds me of ma childhood, how ma dresses by u were worn

You getting up from sleep, calling ma name
When I saw blood, unstoppable and in vain
I ran towards u, cudnt c u in pain,
Was helpless looking at u, ma hands shivering with the blood stains..

Never heard a “Aah” or “Ouch” from u,
Tell me, Please tell me how did u go thru..???

Dose sleepless nights could see u restless,
Those eyes would never take a little rest..

Close your eyes mum, go to sleep
That was what I would always repeat
Don’t do anything mum, u jus rest
I’ll take care of everything rest

Close your eyes and take a nap
Get well soon and takeover your work gap
U never wanted to worry us 4 any work of u,
& now u were helpless, depending on us few

Close your eyes mum, go to sleep
U never listened to me though I used to repeat..

Y did u leave us, when u lived for us
I live for ma children, they r ma world..

U went in2 deep seep now,
I cudnt wake u up
I looked in2 your heartbeats,
Your nerves were stopped

Get up mum, tell me whats happening 2u
Y r u quiet? Speak to me, a word or 2

Shout by ma name or complain me continuous
Get up once and hold me beneath u,
Tease me with your pinches,
Throw pillows at me,
Tickle ma waist and hold me tight
Put your hands on ma forehead, call me your child
Make me feel secured
Ask me what happened,
Please look at me with that smile

As I come 4m office and enter d door
I see d empty chair, were I wished u 2b der..
Welcoming me with a smile, serving d food hot
Guess what I have made 4 u, guess what I have brought

Had never imagined lif e without u mum,
In any situation u used to stand strong..

I live for ma children, was d lines she used 2 say,
Taking care of our  tiny things,  her love she would spray..

Something missing when u not here,
When I say mummy, and realize with a tear..
D name which was hundred a times on ma lips,
In  a fraction of second I would not speak..

Look at me mum, how helpless am i,
As u always warned, u’ll realize when I die..

U were lying dressed up like a bride,
Cudnt sense your fragrance, even for d last time..


Couldnt stop staring at u, sitting next 2 your feet,
Never 2  let u go, said every heartbeat
Wanted 2 c u, n fill u in ma eyes
Would it last forever, or Would it last 4 sum time..
U were picked and taken out of the house,
This ws d last time after years with your spouse,
U would never enter d door again,
Nor your presence would reflect round d house and window pane

How will we live without u mum?
Without your shadow n love belt

The last kiss with ma hand on your cheeks
How cud I believe that  was d last kiss?
D Christmas kiss was not even a day past,
Dose occasional kisses now would never last..!!

I lost ma child mum, u lost your’s 2
How will I handle d responsibilities to do?
They say m strong mum, I donno hw strong to be
 Jus Want 2 b your child mum, have been strong for a long while me!!!

3 comments:

  1. :* No words Jus speechless .... Tears just rolled ovr my cheeks.... Ur feelings can d felt baby.....no1 can replace mum.. We Miss her every second of r lives..but u kno wot Ua capable of all dear...Hatss off to u babe... .I LOve u lott...muahh :*

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    1. :) <3 its a flash back as i read it agn n agn

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  2. Yup.... even 4 me....:) <3

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